I woke up with a start, my mind for an instant blissfully blank. And then it all came rushing back. Seeing Severus, him proposing....everything.
And everything I didn't remember, things that had disappeared since coming here. Here, into this barren wasteland of limbo called Strangetown by its even weirder residents that I had met. Severus thought that this place was a second chance, but he didn't realize the consequences of forgetting everything from our world....
I was so preoccupied with my thoughts that I didn't realize it when my food started to burn. ("Damn it!") The odor wafted over to where Severus was sleeping, and I heard him wake up and get out of bed.
The name brought a fresh onslaught of pain, for the reason I had only become to understand.
Everytime you try to forget part of your old life, you will lose something precious to you, a memory from the other world that you hold dear.
The rule was something I had not been told of, but had instead learned through painful experience.
The first thing I lost was my own name. Lily ceased to exist, and Marisa took her place. I became a delivery person for a company I didn't even know the name of, a nameless employee in a world that no longer seemed welcoming.
My name was the key to my identity, and without my name I no longer had my identity. The memories of who I was were lost forever to time.
It was the price paid for a second chance.
And yet this man, this guy sitting before me, had brought it all back. The instant he had called me Lily, everything had come back. All the memories I had forgotten, everything I had lost, were all brought back to me. My name, my son, my husband. My death.
I knew in that instant that I would no longer forget or try to forget what had happened, but at the same time I wasn't going to give up my new life either.
I just hoped Severus would understand....
This new life had changed him. For the better, I think, but also for the worse.
He didn't know what forgetting would do to him. I know he wanted to forget almost everything, everything bad that had happened to him, but he didn't the good would go along with it.
He didn't know that giving up the old life would destroy this new one.
And oh yea, I had one more problem.
I was pregnant.
It became apparent after the fifth day of throwing up in the bathroom, a few weeks after our first night as a married couple.
Severus was clueless as ever, and I didn't know how to tell him. (I didn't even completely knew how I felt about the baby at this point, much less ready for Severus' reaction) It was a conversation I knew we'd have to have sometime, regardless.
But it was certainly not the conversation I wanted to having while he was in the shower and I was puking my guts out over the toilet.
"Lily? Are you okay? What's that noise?"
"...I'm fine, Sev. Just--" at this point I threw up again into the toilet. "---I just ate some spoiled food and once I get it out of my system, I'll be alright." At this point I walked out of the bathroom, not waiting to hear his reply.
Unfortunately for me, this wasn't the easiest thing to hide. Not really easy at all, actually. My morning sickness continued for quite awhile (or so it seemed) and I didn't know how long Severus was going to wait before he started suspecting something was up.
But at this point, I was getting excited for the birth. I was beyond nervous (and still hadn't told Severus) but happy. I wanted another child so badly, wanted to enjoy the moments with him or her and not die before he or she had even become a toddler.
And I wanted a child with Severus. This shocking fact came to me in the middle of the night, when I woke up suddenly and felt my growing belly.
And growing it was. I no longer could wear my lovely nightgown or any of the other tighter clothes I had worn before. At this point I was a few months into the pregnancy and still hadn't told Severus. This was bad, I know, but I didn't know how to approach the subject with him, didn't know how he would react.
He surely would have noticed my growing belly, though....
All of this plus the fact that Severus didn't know about the one rule in this world made me really worried. It was all up to me to tell him everything, and yet I hadn't.
And it was even more worrisome that he didn't realize I was pregnant. (Did he think I was just gaining a lot of weight or something?)
At this point I realized I had to approach the conversation with him, no matter how painful.
"Severus?" The words came softly, even though we were the only ones in the house.
He just looked at me with the kindest eyes, ones I hadn't seen on him in such a long time, that I couldn't help but pause. It didn't help that at that point he had to go to work, either.
But he came home soon enough, and at dinner I was ready to talk to him again. Just blurt it out, if I had to.
"Sev, we've never really talked about this...but what do you think of kids? Babies, more specifically."
He kind of looked at me again, this time with the weird expression on his face.
"What are you talking about, Lily? I mean, I---"
And then he kind of stopped and had this most shocked expression on his face I had ever seen. (I hoped this wouldn't end badly)
"Lily...are you saying what I think--are you saying you're pregnant?"
I looked deep into his eyes at that moment and said slowly,
"Yes, yes I am. I'm pregnant, Sev."
He looked so young and unsure at that moment, but so unbelievably happy. And I was relieved.
"Lily..." he spoke softly and slowly too, but the word was like a melody playing softly in my ear.
At that point he was silent again (and I tried without success to read his face), but I knew it wasn't a bad thing.
"Yea, babies, I'm don't think they're too terrible," he joked.
And it was the most beautiful moment you could ever imagine.
And Severus was overjoyed.
I couldn't be happier either, and thought that just maybe, things would work out this time.
I became very excited for my upcoming due date as well. It would only be a few more months until I delivered.
And Severus...he just couldn't believe it. I don't know if he completely believed it was all real. I don't know if I did either at that point.
But seeing that look on his face....I just knew it wasn't a dream.
It was all very real.
And it just seemed so blissfully perfect.
As I came closer and closer to my due date, Severus became more and more excited. We talked about the baby multiple times, thinking up names and everything.
Severus wanted to keep my parents' tradition of naming kids after flowers.
I wasn't too keen the idea, personally, but he was too happy for me to try and persuade him against the idea.
In my last month I almost considered the fact that I was having twins, my belly was so large. But the doctor we went to had said there was only one baby and thankfully healthy, so I wasn't too worried or anything.
We had also had an addition done on our house to add a room for the baby.
The doorway was right next to the main room with our bed and everything so we'd be near enough to hear him or her when she or he cried.
The weirdest part of the pregnancy was the raging hormones, including ones that made me feel more horny than any teenager half my age. (Well, maybe not seeing as in this place we seemed to be much younger than before; Severus swore we could only be in our early twenties or so...)
And one morning I knew it was time.
Yea, it was really painful, as most people know labor is.
And I didn't make it to the hospital either. (Severus called a mid-wife at one point, worried but not enough to take me to the hospital, still not completely comfortable with a Muggle hospital even after all the times we had been to one during the later months of my pregnancy)
But I wasn't too worried. There was a moment right before the ending moments of labor that I knew everything would be alright...
She was beautiful, and looked just like her Daddy. (I'm sure Severus is still boggled over that fact, both in her looks and the fact that he's a dad)
We named her Rose, per Severus' argument for flower names. I was too tired to argue, and it seemed to fit her.
I think time froze at that point, like everybody says it does when you finally have your own flesh and blood in your arms. I'd had my son before, but this was a different moment, a different world. A different man.
Needless to say, our romance was still going strong.
And Severus, while he continued to deny it, was an amazing father to our dear Rose.
And lo and behold, after a year or so after Rose's birth, I found myself once again pregnant.
And I had a feeling this pregnancy would be different than the one before it...
Not just the fact that my morning sickness was way worse the second time around than the first....
And I had a craving for romance novels all the time....
....yea, I was really queasy. The morning sickness definitely topped off as the worst thing about this pregnancy.
I began to suspect something when my belly became bigger than before, and more quickly than before...
But I still had Rose to worry about, so my suspicions about my current pregnancy were brushed to the side.
And every morning I found myself going to the mailbox, yet not knowing what I was looking for.
The mailman himself seemed familar, though I couldn't place him. (Wasn't too bad to look at either, but rest assured, I still very much loved my husband)
And eventually it was time for Rose's birthday.
As I watched my daughter grow up, I felt a little sad that I hadn't been able to watch my son from before grow up, not the way I wanted anyway.
But I was happy, both for my daughter and for my husband.
She certainly took after her father, that much was certain.
Our daughter was a toddler, a first time for both Severus and I.
Rose was such a ball of joy, making funny faces at me all the time and always being such a cheerful little girl. Sev and I were both so overjoyed with her.
Sometimes the faces she'd make in her little chair were a bit much (I sure didn't want her face stuck that way...), but I took it in stride. She would grow up lovely, I just knew it.
And another thing I noticed very quickly was that her hair grew in very fast. She had beautiful, thick black hair and I couldn't but help smile brightly at her. She was our child, our lovely little girl.
Of course, more kids were coming.
And pretty soon I was delivering again.
The second time and Severus was still very upset and nervous.
I handed off our second lovely child to Severus because....
I was having TWINS.
Yes, it was a shock even to me when the doctor proclaimed this fact when I was a couple months along and had gone for a check-up.
We named them Camellia and Amaryllis, again keeping with the flower names. (This was a trend I sought to put a stop to, but was always too tired at the point of naming to protest. Of course, after awhile I suppose I began to like the idea, something I suspected Severus was trying to make happen all along.)
Of course, Rose still demanded our attention, especially since she soon was going to be growing up into a lovely little child.
Our romance wasn't dampened by our three kids, either. *coughs*
And during all of this, even before we got married, Severus had been working hard at his new job as a Scientist. I also recently took a desk job in the military, a field I had a craving to go into recently.
And so we hired this nanny to help care for our kids when one or both of us were at work.
She was very nice and always helped out with Rose when Severus was at work and I was too tired from the twins to be able to care for Rose.
The years went by fast and soon enough it was time for Rose's sixth birthday, and her transition into a child.
She grew up into a beautiful girl, if I do say so myself.
Soon enough she was requesting makeovers and all kinds of things from her mommy, to which I happily obliged. Her hair jad contined to grow long and thick and so I helped her arrange it so it wouldn't fall in her face all the time, a headband no longer able to keep it from going all over the place.
Severus and I were worried about her nose, however, something that the doctors assured us would probably grow in with time, and could've possibly come from her toddler years, lying in her crib on her stomach and thus her nose, all the time.
We were still worried, nonetheless.
As I watched my daughter grow up, I couldn't help but feel happy for all of the time I had been given in this other life.
The years were just flying by us and pretty soon I found myself pregnant, yet again.
The twins' birthday also came up soon enough, their own transition into toddlerhood.
Camellia grew up first, our little firstborn of the twins.
I then helped Amaryllis.
She too grew into a cute little toddler.
And at this point things got a little sad, because I lost my baby by way of a miscarriage. It was really upsetting, and for awhile things weren't the same in our house. I just couldn't believe something like that could happen, much less to me.
But eventually Severus helped me to live my life again, and I started concentrating on my younger daughters.
Our Camellia had a cute little chubby face along with her chubby little nose.
She really took after her father. (Especially the nose thing)
Amaryllis here was more like her older sister.
And we again became worried about her nose, though the doctors again said she would probably turn out fine. Probably.
And soon enough our lovely daughters grew up into beautiful children. Amaryllis is here.
And Camellia here.
Camellia was definitely her father's daughter.
And I helped give the both of them mini makeovers with their hair. Both of their hair had seemed to get very wavy and curly as they got older.
Cam certainly had the wavier hair of the two.
And just as I though things couldn't surprise me more, I found myself once again
->You have NO IDEA how unbelievably long it took to make this entry. Playing the game, taking the screenshots, editing and hosting them, and them posting them along with a story. XD
->The story was hard to form a bit at first, but easier as I went along. A little hard to account for some things in the game, though, I'll admit and I seriously praise anyone who writes story legacies, cause you are completely awesome to do all that you have to do to create a successful story legacy. :3
->I was SO LUCKY that Lily brought up the topic of babies in conversation with Severus. I was getting a little worried that it would never come up and I'd have no way to introduce the idea of Snape finding out about Lily's pregnancy. =P
->You all also have no idea how fuzzy those labor shots were. I'm never taking those again, they took FOREVER to blur and fix. =P
->During her pregancy, Lily suddenly became a ROMANCE SIM. Seriously, she got all this romance wants even though she's a popularity sim. Popularity with Severus, then? XD
->Mailman=hot. I'll have to introduce him into my legacy later. :3
-> THE KIDS WERE SO UGLY AS TODDLERS. >_> Seriously, I had to blur their cheeks so you all wouldn't have to experience the HORROR that is the Snape cheek. *_* They looked fine as children, though, besides the noses. =P
->To which I found Lily is the culprit for some of the noses. She has no nose, and Severus has....well, the opposite, and yet this didn't even out in their kids. Half have no nose, and half have a huge nose. x_x
->The miscarriage came from the fact that I got really bored with the kids and aged them, and I thought it'd be a bit strange if Lily was pregnant from when they were babies until when they were kids, yet only had one kid (or one set of kids, she's still pregnant in my game and I dunno if she's having twins or not. =P)
So yes. Sorry for the long wait, but hope you enjoyed! Comments are loved. ^^
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